downville

A friend said to me two days ago, "You've been very down lately."
I have been.
I haven't been able to put my finger on what exactly has been bothering me, but while we were chatting (over the most delicious cup of coffee) my friend pointed it out to me.

The reasons for my funk are twofold.

Firstly, I miss my brother. Things are not better yet and I have come to the conclusion that it's bothering me more than I'd realised. What has made it worse is this: I spoke to my mom about it and I've told her that I miss him and the fact that things are not getting better fast enough for me is making me antsy. She told me that I couldn't fix things (which I know) and also that what I was feeling was directly linked to my ego. :-o
I felt so shit.

Secondly, I think my patience is running out with my matter of the heart.
Well, not my patience so much as... Here's the thing. I was asked for time. Okay, no problem, time is fine. I know you need to sort your life out and I completely respect and understand that.
In the mean time, while not laying it on thick, I am still trying to slowly get to know him.
My problem is that this is one-sided. He's not even trying to get to know me. He has not once asked me anything about myself and if the interest isn't there, well, then okay. BUT TELL ME. So that I know and so that I can grieve the loss/disappointment and move on. Don't ask me to give you time and then...nothing.

So, yeah.

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Whether you came across my whiny blog by accident or on purpose, thanks!
I am honoured that you took the time to read my ravings...and I hope that it has educated, inspired or entertained you in some way :))

Validation

This week, Alan Simmonds is guest lecturing my Journalism class. He is a renowned journalist and was a war correspondent in Vietnam - he is actually the one who first convened the course 30 odd years ago and he taught it for more than 20 of them. Recently, he has given over the teaching of this course to Mrs. Jean Knighton-Fitt, an excellent writer and author in her own right.

Jean has asked Alan to come and lecture us on the news reporting sections of our course, and two days ago, we started on accident reporting. I love his style of teaching - it is a bit intimidating at first when you're on the receiving end because he puts you on the spot and asks you questions, but effective because he engages you in the lecture, captures your attention for the entire duration of the class and forces you to think.

As exciting and informative as his lecture was, for me, that was not the highlight of the evening.
To cut a long story short, he basically offered to help me get an interview with which ever publication I'd like to work for once I've completed the course.

To say I was surprised would be a gross understatement. The cynic in me is thinking, "This man is not serious," and how could he be? As far as I know, he hasn't read anything I've written.
But the optimist in me is extremely flattered and, more importantly, I feel encouraged. Simply by engaging with me in one class, he recognises skills in me that I didn't know exist.

So, thank you Mr. Simmonds. A validation from you means a lot and has boosted my confidence considerably.

cheering myself up

Second day of the second term.
I'm happy to be back at work-I feel useless when I'm not doing something, so I try to keep busy.

Unfortunately, I think I'm finding myself in a bit of a rut. It would explain the copious amounts of chocolate I've been consuming for the last 2 weeks or so. I really don't know why I feel down. I cannot pinpoint one exact thing that is the cause of me feeling like this.

So, in an effort to cheer myself up (and if I can cheer you up, then cool), here goes...

Zoe and Wade

Tamina and Dastan

 

Jane and Rotchester

Lestat and Jesse